A poem for PTSD Awareness: What’s Left of Me…

What’s left of me

 –

I am sick of feeling

All these things I can’t change

It’s strangling

Suffocating

What’s left of me

 

I am tired of falling

Into the dark depths of my mind

It’s destroying

Demolishing

What’s left of me

 

I am done taking

Everything life throws at me

It’s annihilating

Smashing

What’s left of me

 

I am finishing

This journey of mine

I am ending

Exterminating

What’s left of me…

–

Just Patty

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dark poetry: Alone

Alone

–

Inside

I feel Alone

Abandoned

By every living Soul

I try to

Hide

The mental

And emotional

Suicide

I try to commit

Every day

Just

Stay away

Because I think I

Already Died

Inside

All Alone

I am beyond

Saving

Many have tried

But still I am

Breaking

Although I’m breathing

Still alive

But slowly dying

Inside

Just Alone

My tears all

Dried

Bittersweet sedation

Embraced by pain

Nothing more to

Gain

Shattered trust and broken

Pride

I am beyond fixing

Just let me be

Inside

I am Alone…

–

Just Patty

 

 

 

Dedicated dark poetry for today: If I Never Wake Again…

I wrote this poem for a friend of mine and I dedicate it to him as well.

Don’t give up ❤

If I Never Wake Again

–

Given up on

Dreams

Given up on

Tomorrow

If I never wake again

At least there’s no more

Sorrow

I tried

To overcome

But it’s all so

Hollow

Just tell me why

Why should I even

Try

When everything

Anything

Always fails

If I never wake again

At least I will go

Solo

No more

Strength

Only numbness

Love and Happiness

They’re just for

Show

I have nothing left

Only emptiness

Darkness

Inside of me

If I never wake again

At least I can escape this

Shadow

I won’t be a loss

To anyone

Living this life

I’m just done

‘Cause what’s the use?

Suffering from Life’s

Abuse

If I never wake again

At least I can let

Go…

–

(don’t let go)

Just Patty

Dark poetry: Days to come

Days to come

 –

Staring out the rain covered windows

Wondering, dreaming, pondering

About the days to come

Dark days, dark nights

An appointment with the gallows

The lifeline slowly breaking

 –

Dreaming with eyes wide open

Worrying, fearing, dreading

The days to come

Empty days, empty nights

So many words unspoken

A heart that keeps bleeding

 –

Crying in absolute and utter silence

Dazzling, circling, doubting

Over the days to come

Hollow days, hollow nights

Wandering without guidance

Losing the war without fighting

 –

Crawling to the rain covered windows

Crushing, destroying, ending

The days to come

Trifling days, trifling nights

The leap and the scream that follows

Silence, when the heart stops beating

–

Just Patty

Quotes for today: Suicide prevention

 

If you are thinking about committing suicide or you know someone who is suicidal, don’t hesitate! Talk!

TALK! People can’t read your mind, you have to talk about it!

No.

It isn’t over until it’s over. You can always make a change. You always have a choice.

I know, I’ve been there.

You are a warrior. FIGHT!

You are. You matter.

True. And that’s a slow, painful death.

 But I know, no one cares right?

There is always someone who cares. There is always someone who needs you in this world!

Yes you can! Get help, TALK! Keep fighting!

I am here. I will listen.

Just do. Don’t turn your back on someone who needs you.

Be aware! Look out for the signs!

Don’t Judge, Just Care.

Take the badge, stand up and speak up!

Lots of Love,

Patty

 

 

 

Throwback Thursday: Battling a Monster

On Throwback Thursday I like to share some older poems and posts of mine.

Because it’s World Suicide Prevention Week, I have chosen to share some of my informational posts about suicide, depression and PTSD.

Yes, I know that I have shared this before. But I don’t think that I can ever share this enough.

I think that it’s very important that we stand up, break the silence, know the signs and don’t judge but CARE!

You can find the posts by clicking on the links below.

Battling an All Ending Monster – an informational post about suicide, prevention and signs

Battling a Memory Monster – an informational post about PTSD

A Monster called Depression – an informational post about depression

Battling a Damaging Monster – an informational post about Self-Harm

World Suicide Prevention Day

Today is World Suicide Prevention Day.

As most of you might now, I blog for suicide prevention often. I think it’s very important that suicide stops being a taboo and people just talk openly about it.

Being suicidal is NOT something to be ashamed of!

Being depressed is NOT something you should have to hide!

Reach out, there are people who care. 

I am right here and I care.

For more information about this topic, check out Battling an All Ending Monster. or http://wspd.org.au/ or http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/

Don’t Judge, Just Care.

Lots of Love

Patty

Suicide

 –

It seems so easy

No more pain

Just one little step

And your life becomes in vain

 –

It’s just  so tempting

No more sorrow

A couple of pills

And no more tomorrow

 –

It seems about right

No more suffering

Just one little cut

And no more fighting

– 

It’s just so soothing

No more contest

Just one quick shot

And you’re finally at rest

 –

Just jump of the bridge

Across the river of life

Lights out, forever blind

But what of the hurt?

 –

For those you’ll leave behind…

–

– Just Patty –

Quotes of the week: suicide prevention

I CARE!

Lots of Love

Patty

 

 

 

 

 

 

Repost poem: This is it… (suicide)

This is it

–

This is it

Right now

This is where it all ends

The pain

The suffering

Self-hate

Never good enough

Or

Strong enough

It’s time

To leave it all behind

A thousand untold stories

The madness

The cruelty

Right now

It has to end

My life

Because

I am done

Done fighting

Done struggling

This is the end

No more sorrow

For me

–

This is it

Right now

This is where it all begins

The pain

The suffering

Guilt

It wasn’t enough

Or

I did it wrong

This time

I was left behind

A thousand questions unanswered

The hurt

The grief

Right now

Because you ended

Your life

But

I wasn’t done

Done saving

Done caring

This is the beginning

Only sorrow

For me…

– Just Patty –

Don’t give up yet, click the picture for help.

You are not alone. I am right here to listen…

Click for more information about suicide—> Battling an All Ending Monster.

Lots of love

Patty

A Haiku for PTSD Awareness Month

June is PTSD Awareness Month

Don’t Judge

Just Care

Lots of Love

Patty