What’s left of me
–
I am sick of feeling
All these things I can’t change
It’s strangling
Suffocating
What’s left of me
I am tired of falling
Into the dark depths of my mind
It’s destroying
Demolishing
What’s left of me
I am done taking
Everything life throws at me
It’s annihilating
Smashing
What’s left of me
I am finishing
This journey of mine
I am ending
Exterminating
What’s left of me…
–
Just Patty
Alone
–
Inside
I feel Alone
Abandoned
By every living Soul
I try to
Hide
The mental
And emotional
Suicide
I try to commit
Every day
Just
Stay away
Because I think I
Already Died
Inside
All Alone
I am beyond
Saving
Many have tried
But still I am
Breaking
Although I’m breathing
Still alive
But slowly dying
Inside
Just Alone
My tears all
Dried
Bittersweet sedation
Embraced by pain
Nothing more to
Gain
Shattered trust and broken
Pride
I am beyond fixing
Just let me be
Inside
I am Alone…
–
Just Patty
I wrote this poem for a friend of mine and I dedicate it to him as well.
Don’t give up ❤
If I Never Wake Again
–
Given up on
Dreams
Given up on
Tomorrow
If I never wake again
At least there’s no more
Sorrow
I tried
To overcome
But it’s all so
Hollow
Just tell me why
Why should I even
Try
When everything
Anything
Always fails
If I never wake again
At least I will go
Solo
No more
Strength
Only numbness
Love and Happiness
They’re just for
Show
I have nothing left
Only emptiness
Darkness
Inside of me
If I never wake again
At least I can escape this
Shadow
I won’t be a loss
To anyone
Living this life
I’m just done
‘Cause what’s the use?
Suffering from Life’s
Abuse
If I never wake again
At least I can let
Go…
–
(don’t let go)
Just Patty
Days to come
–
Staring out the rain covered windows
Wondering, dreaming, pondering
About the days to come
Dark days, dark nights
An appointment with the gallows
The lifeline slowly breaking
–
Dreaming with eyes wide open
Worrying, fearing, dreading
The days to come
Empty days, empty nights
So many words unspoken
A heart that keeps bleeding
–
Crying in absolute and utter silence
Dazzling, circling, doubting
Over the days to come
Hollow days, hollow nights
Wandering without guidance
Losing the war without fighting
–
Crawling to the rain covered windows
Crushing, destroying, ending
The days to come
Trifling days, trifling nights
The leap and the scream that follows
Silence, when the heart stops beating
–
Just Patty
If you are thinking about committing suicide or you know someone who is suicidal, don’t hesitate! Talk!
TALK! People can’t read your mind, you have to talk about it!
No.
It isn’t over until it’s over. You can always make a change. You always have a choice.
I know, I’ve been there.
You are a warrior. FIGHT!
You are. You matter.
True. And that’s a slow, painful death.
But I know, no one cares right?
There is always someone who cares. There is always someone who needs you in this world!
Yes you can! Get help, TALK! Keep fighting!
I am here. I will listen.
Just do. Don’t turn your back on someone who needs you.
Be aware! Look out for the signs!
Don’t Judge, Just Care.
Take the badge, stand up and speak up!
Lots of Love,
Patty
On Throwback Thursday I like to share some older poems and posts of mine.
Because it’s World Suicide Prevention Week, I have chosen to share some of my informational posts about suicide, depression and PTSD.
Yes, I know that I have shared this before. But I don’t think that I can ever share this enough.
I think that it’s very important that we stand up, break the silence, know the signs and don’t judge but CARE!
You can find the posts by clicking on the links below.
Battling an All Ending Monster – an informational post about suicide, prevention and signs
Battling a Memory Monster – an informational post about PTSD
A Monster called Depression – an informational post about depression
Battling a Damaging Monster – an informational post about Self-Harm
Today is World Suicide Prevention Day.
As most of you might now, I blog for suicide prevention often. I think it’s very important that suicide stops being a taboo and people just talk openly about it.
Being suicidal is NOT something to be ashamed of!
Being depressed is NOT something you should have to hide!
Reach out, there are people who care.
I am right here and I care.
For more information about this topic, check out Battling an All Ending Monster. or http://wspd.org.au/ or http://www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Don’t Judge, Just Care.
Lots of Love
Patty
Suicide
–
It seems so easy
No more pain
Just one little step
And your life becomes in vain
–
It’s just so tempting
No more sorrow
A couple of pills
And no more tomorrow
–
It seems about right
No more suffering
Just one little cut
And no more fighting
–
It’s just so soothing
No more contest
Just one quick shot
And you’re finally at rest
–
Just jump of the bridge
Across the river of life
Lights out, forever blind
But what of the hurt?
–
For those you’ll leave behind…
–
– Just Patty –
I CARE!
Lots of Love
Patty
This is it
–
This is it
Right now
This is where it all ends
The pain
The suffering
Self-hate
Never good enough
Or
Strong enough
It’s time
To leave it all behind
A thousand untold stories
The madness
The cruelty
Right now
It has to end
My life
Because
I am done
Done fighting
Done struggling
This is the end
No more sorrow
For me
–
This is it
Right now
This is where it all begins
The pain
The suffering
Guilt
It wasn’t enough
Or
I did it wrong
This time
I was left behind
A thousand questions unanswered
The hurt
The grief
Right now
Because you ended
Your life
But
I wasn’t done
Done saving
Done caring
This is the beginning
Only sorrow
For me…
– Just Patty –
Don’t give up yet, click the picture for help.
You are not alone. I am right here to listen…
Click for more information about suicide—> Battling an All Ending Monster.
Lots of love
Patty
June is PTSD Awareness Month
Don’t Judge
Just Care
Lots of Love
Patty
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