Resonate

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Resonate

–

Sometimes I wonder

How we got so close, so fast

And then I ponder

Will it last?

 

A rare connection formed instantly

What is it, I ruminate

That red line between you and me

Is it coincidence or fate?

 

Sometimes I reflect

How our bond got so strong

It’s just perfect

But… for how long?

 

Compatible minds relate immediately

What is it, I speculate

That made us attach so easily

 Is it luck or something we create?

 

Sometimes I think about

How you became my friend

And I try to figure out

Will it end?

 

Sometimes I wonder

How two hearts unite so suddenly…

But then I stop and just appreciate

That red line between you and me

And I realize how amazing it is;

We have souls that resonate

–

Just Patty

 

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017!

Hey everyone,

I wanted to take a moment to share my highlights of 2016 with you 🙂

I had a pretty awesome year!

Sure, there were some bumps on the road, but an awesome year for sure. 🙂

I know that I have not been around much because I’ve been so busy, so I want to thank you all for sticking around ❤

First of all, my third fantasy book and the last one in the Drägan Duma trilogy got published in June!

I had a great book presentation and am pretty proud of myself and my hubby for making this possible 🙂

It’s such a great feeling to finish a trilogy!

The love of my life ❤ I owe him a lot!

I have been to many events to promote and sign my books

Had a lot of fun with Team Celtica and met a lot of new people 🙂

We went to Curacao because our friends got married there! ❤

The day I saw my uncle on stage at Parkpop (a large festival in Holland) is one of the happiest days of my life. Not only did our uncle survive a terrible accident, he even managed to perform life on stage again within the year!

And my nephew Justin released his first CD, I am a very proud aunt!

Because of my PTSD some things are very hard for me.

I don’t like to be around a lot of people, I don’t like to be the center of attention and I am always wanting to stay where it’s “safe”.

But this year I did a lot of things that are way out of my comfort zone!

I have been a guest on a radio show for example! 🙂

And I did a book pitch on stage. (This was soooo scary!)

Another thing I’ve never done before is going on a roadtrip with a friend.

I am so glad that I did this, it was awesome! (thanks to Jeffrey, who has been such a great friend to me.)

We took a leap of faith with each other and I am so glad we did. I can’t even explain what this guy means to me! ❤

 

You guys know he’s a writer too, right? Check out his blog at www.jeffreydebris.com 🙂

And last but not least, we’ve sold 1000 books of Zij Die Hoort, the first book in the series! 🙂

(in Holland, that’s a lot lol!)

I can’t help but thinking back at the times I thought that my life would never get better. The times I felt like I was living in a nightmare. 

But it did get better. Way better!

So, for everyone who is still having a hard time; hold on, keep fighting. It will be worth it some day ❤

Wishing you all an awesome, magical and loving 2017!

Lots of love,

Patty

Can you handle (all of me)

Can you handle (all of me)
–
Do you
Give up easily?
Or will you
Stand by me
As I drift away
Get lost inside
My mind
Can you
Cope with crazy?
Or will you
Just leave me
When I fight
My battle
To stay sane
Are you
Strong and trustworthy?
Or are you
Scared by obscurity
The darkness
That dwells inside
My soul
Do you
Understand genuinely?
Or did you
Just not see
The broken parts
Obscure melancholy
That is my heart
Do you
Really love me?
Or are you
Attracted to
Paradoxical mystery
Balancing on the edge
Of insanity
Can you
Handle me?
Or will you
Hide anxiously
When you eventually
get to know
All of me…
–
Just Patty 

A Senryu for Today <3

Throwback Thursday: Touches your Heart

On ‘Throwback Thursdays’ I want to share some older Poems and posts of mine. I hope you will enjoy!    

Today I will share a poem from my first poetry book ‘My Wings’ with you.

Touches your heart

–

Every once in a while

Someone touches your heart

And you will love this person

Right from the start

 

Your trust and smiles

Others had to gain

You’ll give this person freely

It’s like a malfunction of the brain

 

Someone touched your heart

So you can’t help it

You will give yourself over

Bit by bit…

 

A connection so strong, it can’t be broken

Not by distance, not by time

With some people

You will always have that line

 

People give that connection a name

Call it chemistry, call it love

Call it an act from the heavens above…

 

Fact is, it can’t be explained

Why between some, that feeling is real

Someone just touched your heart…

At least, that’s how I feel…

–

Just Patty

Yes, I am Difficult!

I am a difficult person to be friends with.

Now, I see some people who read this raise their eyebrows, so let me explain why.

By nature, I’m a kind person. But I am not a friendly person. I keep people on a distance most of the time. Of course, we can hang out and stuff, but I won’t let you come close easy.

And if I let my guard down and let you come close, I will start to love you. And that’s when the trouble starts…

I have a loyalty problem, meaning that I have way too much of it. Once I love you, it mostly is for life. I can’t help that, it’s in my character. But I do expect loyalty in return as well. If you really are my friend,  you are my friend to the end. If not, you can just as well pack your bags and leave now.

I also have a temper. If you fuck up, do something stupid, don’t treat yourself well or if I am just mad at you for something, I will tell you! And trust me, I have a big mouth and I can be a real pain in the ass. Or I will stay silent and let you figure out why.

But, if you are my friend, I can fight with you without loving you any less.

Next, I am brutally honest. I don’t lie because, well, I am just not good at it lol. This can come across as blunt or even rude. If you expect sugarcoating, you’re at the wrong bakery.

I am a curious person too. If I like you, I want to know you. So be prepared for a lot of questions! Not because I need to know everything, but just because I like to understand where you are coming from. Makes things a lot easier.

If you need me, I am there for you. No matter what. But, if I need someone, I almost never ask for help. Very annoying, I know. And if I do need someone, I will not be clear about it either.

I am always ‘fine’. You will have to figure it out on your own.

I am stubborn as hell and I do crazy things. If you, as my friend, try to keep me from doing something stupid, it could turn in quite a battle. I will protect you, but I never see it when I need protection myself.

Also, I have PTSD. This comes with a lot of baggage. One of that is that I don’t believe that you will stay. People leave. It’s that simple. Usually, it takes me ages before I will trust you.

PTSD also comes with sudden mood swings, depression, flashbacks or even panic attacks caused by triggers. My mind just works different. I will try to keep you out of that, but I don’t always have it under control. Sooner or later, you will discover the crazy side of me. It makes me a hard person to deal with.

I don’t respond well to compliments either. Not because I don’t like them, I just don’t know how to respond to them.

So you see, I am a difficult friend. But it’s a matter of choice really. I know my flaws. If you can deal with my craziness, don’t give up easy and are willing to stay, I am also a very good one…

Lots of love

Patty

NaPoWriMo Day 9: Dedicated to all my friends out here

 

 

Poetry for today: Magic…

Magic

–

In this world

Filled with disbelief

Broken hearts

Pain and grief

Some will be able to find

Because they’re willing

to See

Something truly beautiful

Hidden deep within

Love, friendship and

Honesty

One heart

Hopeful

touching another

Kindness and caring

Given freely

Without compromising

Making you stronger

And the world less

Dark and eerie

Changing a life

Drastic

Now that is pure

Magic

–

Just Patty

December Award Shower!

Raven–>  http://thedarkestraven.wordpress.com/

Nominated me for the Liebster Award!

Thank you very much. I am truly honored to receive this award from you!

Check out Raven’s blog, you will find some great poetry there.

The Rules:

1) Acknowledge and accept the Liebster Award by leaving a comment on the blog, that nominated you.

2) Copy and paste the Liebster logo onto your blog.

3) Link back to the blogger who nominated you.

4) Answer the 11 questions put to you by the person who nominated you.

5) List 11 random facts about yourself.

6) Nominate and link to 3—11 other blogs you enjoy that have less than 3000 followers.

7) List 11 questions for your Liebster Award nominees on your blog.

8) Inform your nominees by leaving a comment on their blog.

The Questions:

1. Why did you start blogging?

Because I wanted a place where I could write down my thoughts.

2. What inspired or influence you to write?

The biggest influence was the death of my older brother.

3. What are three things you can’t live without?

My Family & Friends, my pets, my laptop.

4. What (other) talents do you have?

Besides writing, I paint and make statues of polymer clay.

5. What is your favorite post you’ve written? (Don’t forget to include the link)

This is a hard one! I honestly don’t have a clue.

6. If you could meet anyone dead or alive, who would it be?

My brother.

7. If money were no object, what would you do all day?

The same that I do now and I would travel more.

8. What has been your biggest challenge?

To learn how to cope with PTSD and my other conditions.

9. If you could learn to do anything, what would it be? And why?

Hmmm, I would like to learn how to fly! 🙂 But besides that, I love to learn new things and I challenge myself on a regular basis to learn more and more.

10. What makes you smile?

A lot of things do. When a family member or friend is happy, when someone writes me a sweet note, my cats playing, spending some time with some I love.

11. What is your most memorable moment in your life?

I have a lot of memorable moments in my life, some good, some bad. I don’t think I can pick one.

I would like to use the same questions for my nominees.

11 random facts:

I have 4 tattoos and planning on getting more

My family and friends go for everything

I have a loyalty problem, I seem to have too much of it lol

My husband and I are together since I was 16

I seem to be missing a thing that’s called ‘self-protection’.

It’s not because I’m strong that I will never give up, it’s because I am too damn stubborn

I love Xmas

If I wouldn’t write, I would go insane for sure

I believe in equality for everyone

Wolves, ravens and crocodiles are my favorite animals

I am a metal head

My Nominees:

Vik–> http://followingthegoldenquill.wordpress.com/

Doc–> (Horty) https://hrexach.wordpress.com/

Barbara–> http://idealisticrebel.com/

Michelle-> http://michelleclementsjames.com/

Kentucky Angel–> https://agwink1942.wordpress.com/

Barbara–> http://idealisticrebel.com/

Has nominated me for The Versatile Blogger Award!

Thank you so much again Barbara! You are such a kind and giving soul.

Here’s the rules:

• Thank the person who gave you this award. That’s common courtesy.
• Include a link to their blog. That’s also common courtesy — if you can figure out how to do it.
• Next, select 15 blogs/bloggers that you’ve recently discovered or follow regularly. ( I would add, pick blogs or bloggers that are excellent!)
• Nominate those 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award — you might include a link to this site.
• Finally, tell the person who nominated you 7 things about yourself.

7 things about me:

I am way too honest for my own good.

My favorite colors are purple, black and white.

I love Italian food

Formula 1 and soccer are my favorite games to watch

Boxing, swimming, dancing and yoga are my favorite sports to do

Supernatural is my favorite tv show

Summer is my favorite season

My nominees:

Raven–> http://thedarkestraven.wordpress.com/

Chess–> https://greeneyedchess.wordpress.com/

Bernie–> http://www.bernieshoot.fr/

Tina–> http://sanit128.wordpress.com/

Lisa–> http://lisaelskerarvid.wordpress.com/

Vik http://followingthegoldenquill.wordpress.com/

Has nominated me for The Very Inspiring Blogger Award!

Thank you so very much! Inspiring people is the highest someone can achieve.

The rules are:

The nominee shall display the Very Inspiring Blogger Award logo on her/his blog, and link to the blog they got nominated from.

The nominee shall nominate fifteen (more or less) bloggers she/he admires, by linking to their blogs and informing them about it.

Write three things that inspired you the most this week.

3 things that inspired me this week:

The kindness some people spread around the world.

The courage people show when facing a battle.

The love shown to me by friends and family

My nominees:

Michelle–> http://tellmeaboutit.co/

George–> https://georgeforfun.wordpress.com/

Syl–> http://syl65.wordpress.com/

Marijke–> http://ceadomile.com/

Peter–> http://peterbouchier.wordpress.com/

Doc (Horty) has nominated me for the Really Neat Blog Award and the Harmony and Peace Award! –>https://hrexach.wordpress.com/

Thank you my dear sister of heart! I am honored by your kindness once again!

The Really Neat Blog Award is a new award created by Dear Kitty.

You can find DearKitty here http://dearkitty1.wordpress.com/

~~IN HER OWN WORDS~~

“I have made this new award: The Real Neat Blog Award. There are so many bloggers whose blogs deserve more attention. So, I will try to do something about that”

My nominees for this award are:

Sandra–> http://quirkybooks.wordpress.com/

Brian–> http://vancouvervisions.com/

Ronnie–> http://ronnie-s.com/

Andy–> http://dragoneystory.wordpress.com/

Scorpion Sting–> http://thestingofthescorpion.wordpress.com/

~Rules~

Give this award to seven bloggers who have added Harmony & Peace, Love & Beauty and Positivity to the world you live in.

Let them know that you nominated them.

Acknowledge the blogger from whom you received this award

Display your award on your blog, because  you have earned it!

Continue to live in Harmony & Peace”

My Nominees:

I nominate all my readers for this beautiful award because you all bring light and love into my life!

You don’t have to accept an award, just know that you are appreciated!

Lots of Love

Patty

Quote of the week!

For today, I want to share one of my favorite Dutch little poems with you.

I think that it is very fitting because everything that has happened lately.

I live by this quote.

You can find the translation underneath the poem.

Lots of Love

Patty

Doom (Fate)

Never leave without a greeting

Never leave without a kiss

Who will meet his doom

won’t be able to do it tomorrow

–

Never leave without a talk

that can hurt a heart so much

What you have left this morning

Could be gone tonight…