Happy Valentines Day!

Happy Valentines Day everyone!

I hope you all have someone to hug today, may it be a partner, family, friends or a pet. Just share some love! 🙂

As a little gift I have lowered the prizes of my poetry books ❤

My Wings

Paperback: $ 5,99     E-book: $ 2,00     Click HERE to order now!

 

My Whisperings

Paperback: $ 7,99     E-book: $ 3,21     Click HERE to order now!

Lots of Love,

Patty

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Memory Jar

First of all: Happy New Year! Wishing you all that’s good, lots of love and awesome times! 🙂

One of the things I like most about the start of a new year is opening up my memory jar and reading back all the good memories I made that year.

I started this a couple of years ago because I discovered that it was harder to remember all the little good things that happen in a year when there are also difficult times to fight through.

It’s easy and fun to have a happy moment & memories jar! You just take a jar, pieces of paper and a pen. Throughout the year, you write down happy moments (big or small) and put them in the jar.

At the end of the year (or at the beginning of a new one) you can read back all the memories and you shall see that, even in a year that doesn’t feel all that great, there are lots and lots of great memories to hold on to!

I write them all down in a notebook because I like to read them back every once in a while.

Your “happy moments” can be big (like a new house, the publication of a book, losing or gaining weight) or smaller (like a nice evening with friends or family, a compliment or something that made you smile)

The size doesn’t matter, it matters when it makes you happy, even if it’s just for a moment. Focus on the good things!

It’s easy to see the things that make us sad, angry or depressed, but it’s harder to remember all the little things that make life worth it!

And that’s when a memory jar comes in handy, a year never has only bad moments, it’s just hard to see the light sometimes. 

It’s nice to see your happy moment jar filling up through the year, so give it a try sometime! 🙂

As for me, I had a lovely New Years Eve with people I love, so that’s already one happy memory for in the jar! 🙂

Lots of love,

Just Patty ❤

Down

Down

–

I can feel it

Insanity

Dragging me

Down

Down into the abyss

into

Oblivion

Can you feel it?

Madness

Tugging and pulling

Tearing me apart

Limb by limb

Until

There’s nothing

Left

To save

Can you see it?

Lunacy

Taking over me

Concealing

My identity

Nullifying

All feelings

I can’t escape it

Craziness

Lost in

A delirium

Insane illusions

Dominating

Every thought

Drowning

In depressive waves

Stray over

Desolated paths

I can feel it

Anxiety

Dragging me

Down

Down

Down

Into nothingness…

–

Just Patty

Stuck in a Loop

Stuck in a Loop

–

Don’t try to

Unravel

The thoughts

In my mind

You will get

Lost

It’s a twisted

Chaos

Of random trivialities

All stuck in a

Loop

A rough sea

Of memories

All entwined

There’s no beginning

No end

Stuck in a

Loop

Don’t try to

Find me

It’s too dark

Inside

A desert of

Melancholy

An illogical puzzle

That can’t be

Solved

A mysterious labyrinth

Of confusing

Feelings

Stuck in a

Loop

Don’t try to

Fix

My heart

It’s broken

Beyond repair

Love withered

All that’s left

Is an echo

An illusion

Just

Don’t come

Close

You will only

get stuck in a

Loop

–

Just Patty

 

Throwback Thursday: The Darkness Inside

Goodbye 2016, Hello 2017!

Hey everyone,

I wanted to take a moment to share my highlights of 2016 with you 🙂

I had a pretty awesome year!

Sure, there were some bumps on the road, but an awesome year for sure. 🙂

I know that I have not been around much because I’ve been so busy, so I want to thank you all for sticking around ❤

First of all, my third fantasy book and the last one in the Drägan Duma trilogy got published in June!

I had a great book presentation and am pretty proud of myself and my hubby for making this possible 🙂

It’s such a great feeling to finish a trilogy!

The love of my life ❤ I owe him a lot!

I have been to many events to promote and sign my books

Had a lot of fun with Team Celtica and met a lot of new people 🙂

We went to Curacao because our friends got married there! ❤

The day I saw my uncle on stage at Parkpop (a large festival in Holland) is one of the happiest days of my life. Not only did our uncle survive a terrible accident, he even managed to perform life on stage again within the year!

And my nephew Justin released his first CD, I am a very proud aunt!

Because of my PTSD some things are very hard for me.

I don’t like to be around a lot of people, I don’t like to be the center of attention and I am always wanting to stay where it’s “safe”.

But this year I did a lot of things that are way out of my comfort zone!

I have been a guest on a radio show for example! 🙂

And I did a book pitch on stage. (This was soooo scary!)

Another thing I’ve never done before is going on a roadtrip with a friend.

I am so glad that I did this, it was awesome! (thanks to Jeffrey, who has been such a great friend to me.)

We took a leap of faith with each other and I am so glad we did. I can’t even explain what this guy means to me! ❤

 

You guys know he’s a writer too, right? Check out his blog at www.jeffreydebris.com 🙂

And last but not least, we’ve sold 1000 books of Zij Die Hoort, the first book in the series! 🙂

(in Holland, that’s a lot lol!)

I can’t help but thinking back at the times I thought that my life would never get better. The times I felt like I was living in a nightmare. 

But it did get better. Way better!

So, for everyone who is still having a hard time; hold on, keep fighting. It will be worth it some day ❤

Wishing you all an awesome, magical and loving 2017!

Lots of love,

Patty

Can you handle (all of me)

Can you handle (all of me)
–
Do you
Give up easily?
Or will you
Stand by me
As I drift away
Get lost inside
My mind
Can you
Cope with crazy?
Or will you
Just leave me
When I fight
My battle
To stay sane
Are you
Strong and trustworthy?
Or are you
Scared by obscurity
The darkness
That dwells inside
My soul
Do you
Understand genuinely?
Or did you
Just not see
The broken parts
Obscure melancholy
That is my heart
Do you
Really love me?
Or are you
Attracted to
Paradoxical mystery
Balancing on the edge
Of insanity
Can you
Handle me?
Or will you
Hide anxiously
When you eventually
get to know
All of me…
–
Just Patty