What’s left of me
–
I am sick of feeling
All these things I can’t change
It’s strangling
Suffocating
What’s left of me
I am tired of falling
Into the dark depths of my mind
It’s destroying
Demolishing
What’s left of me
I am done taking
Everything life throws at me
It’s annihilating
Smashing
What’s left of me
I am finishing
This journey of mine
I am ending
Exterminating
What’s left of me…
–
Just Patty
Those Little Things
Do you remember…
Whispering that everything would be fine
Standing for hours beside my bed
Dear brother of mine
Can you recall…
When we danced together
You were so proud to say
Look, this is my little sister!
Do you still know…
Our fights about school
You wanted me to be better than you
But I thought that I was way too cool
Do you think about…
The times you got so mad
If anyone tried to hurt me
You couldn’t stand to see me being sad
I do remember…
All those little things, every day
You left a hole inside of me
Ever since Death took you away…
–
Just Patty
Choking in my Memories…
–
Peacefully sleeping
Relaxing
Maybe even dreaming
About the future ahead
Comforting
Just hovering
Until things
Turn around
Changing
Images flashing
Burning
In the back of my head
Shallow breathing
Trembling
Sanity fading
I feel like I’m drowning
Suddenly
Fear rushes through my veins
Silently screaming
Fighting
To open my eyes
Falling
Through events from the past
Invisibly crying
Panicking
Until I stumble
Back into reality
Rough awakening
Sweating
Uncontrollable shivering
My heart’s rapid beating
Emotional freezing
Paralyzing
Images still echoing
Through my mind
No escaping
These nightmares
Still shaking
Feels like dying
When I’m
Choking
In my memories…
–
Just Patty
On ‘Throwback Thursdays’ I want to share some older Poems and post of mine. I hope you will enjoy!
For today, I have chosen a poem that always seem to return. Since we have lost Danny’s stepbrother last week, I am forced to face another goodbye. Something I am not that good at because it brings flashbacks from the goodbye’s before…
Hell’s Bells
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Hell’s Bells are pounding in my head
Images flashing before my eyes
Messages from my old friend Death
Present at all goodbyes
–
Panic is building up inside
I have to flee before I go blind
But there’s nowhere to hide
I can’t run from my own broken mind
–
Memories scratching on a locked door
I have to fight to keep them out
Don’t want to see what I saw before
But the Bells are getting so loud…
–
Searching for strength deep within
Take control, freeze my heart
Can’t let those demons win
But secretly, I fall apart
–
I will smile, it’s time to lie
Can’t be weak, my mask is in place
I don’t cry, keep my head up high
For I’ve yet another goodbye to face…
–
Just Patty
In memory of a ray of light.
Sweet dreams, dear Marvin. We will miss you so much, but you will be in our hearts forever…
A final Goodnight…
–
Laughing
Sparkling like a waterfall
Honest and true
Silenced
–
Hugs
Tight as a cocoon
Sweet and strong
Faded
–
Dancing
Like music itself
Joyful and fun
Stopped
–
Love
Given, without hesitation
Easy and real
Never gone
–
Dreaming
Finally, no more struggling
Calm and gentle
A final Goodnight…
–
Love you, always.
Just Patty
Here’s another poem from my newest poetry book My Whisperings.
You can find more information about my poetry books on THIS page.
The Weeping Willow
~
Sitting peacefully
Underneath the weeping willow
Keeping all my thoughts of you
Deep inside of me
Cherishing, protecting
My last thoughts of you
–
Hiding anxiously
Underneath the weeping willow
Holding all my love for you
Deep inside of me
Bleeding, crying
My lost love for you
–
Lying blissfully
Underneath the weeping willow
Holding all my memories of you
Deep inside of me
Remembering, missing
All of you
–
Closing my eyes
Underneath the weeping willow
I feel Death
Deep inside of me
Stop breathing, living
Without you…
~
Just Patty
As from now, my new poetry book ‘My Whisperings’ is available on Create Space and will be available on Amazon in a couple of days!
Yay! I am exited! 🙂
My Whisperings is the second poetry book written by the heart and soul of Just Patty (Patty van Delft), the author of My Wings and the Dutch fantasy novel Drägan Duma – Zij Die Hoort.
In My Whisperings, Patty explores the depths of emotions even further.
This book contains 80 poems, 20 short poems and a collection of photographic artwork made by the author herself.
A collection of dark poetry with rays of light.
Many can relate to the rollercoaster of emotions the poems in this book describe so honestly. Fear, pain, loss, anxiety, hope, joy, love, strength and courage.
‘Poetry is a way of showing your darkest thoughts and deepest feelings through the art of words. Listen to the music of your soul and let your pen dance to the rhythm.’
You can buy your copy right HERE
Lots of Love,
Patty
Days to come
–
Staring out the rain covered windows
Wondering, dreaming, pondering
About the days to come
Dark days, dark nights
An appointment with the gallows
The lifeline slowly breaking
–
Dreaming with eyes wide open
Worrying, fearing, dreading
The days to come
Empty days, empty nights
So many words unspoken
A heart that keeps bleeding
–
Crying in absolute and utter silence
Dazzling, circling, doubting
Over the days to come
Hollow days, hollow nights
Wandering without guidance
Losing the war without fighting
–
Crawling to the rain covered windows
Crushing, destroying, ending
The days to come
Trifling days, trifling nights
The leap and the scream that follows
Silence, when the heart stops beating
–
Just Patty
My Wings is a collection of poetry written by the heart and soul of Just Patty.
‘Patty’s poetry moves the heart and soul, her writing so exquisitely beautiful. She does her own photography as well, using herself as the model. Her photography alone makes this book stand out from the rest. I highly recommend this book to anyone who loves poetry. I promise you Patty will touch you in ways that transcends words.’ (Amy)
Why the name ‘Just Patty’?
Because writing poetry is a naked reflection of the heart and soul, nothing more and nothing less.
It’s ‘Just You’ without decorations.
This collection contains 111 poems divided into two parts: My Dark Wings & My Light Wings.
‘Patty’s book takes the reader through the whole spectrum of human experience. Fear, pain, loss, anxiety, hope, joy and courage. This makes reading ‘My Wings’ an extremely personal experience that speaks directly to every reader. Moreover, the book is filled with beautifully poetic words and amazing artwork. A definite recommendation!’ (Ihsan Jaffer, writer & poet)
Part 1 My Dark Wings is a collection of dark poetry describing some very recognizable emotions like: grief, fear, frustration, melancholy, depression, but also the strength and courage to battle on no matter what.
‘This book is an extraordinarily frank and honest look at the core emotions of life. The poet examines loss, loneliness, anger and hurt as if it happens to her every day. Patty is fearless in opening her heart to examination, and reveals her soul with her every word.’ (Adrian Mitchell, Poet)
Part 2: My Light Wings is a collection of light poetry containing motivation, love, support and the will to enjoy life.
‘It is a roller coaster of emotions. In My Wings, this rising star of a poet establishes herself as a force to be reckoned with. This is no ordinary poetry book as a listing of emotions and topics will attest. And the exquisite, unique photographs with accompanying verses are by Patty herself doubling as both photographer and model! Her images are strikingly beautiful.’ (Phil Fontana)
This poetry book is illustrated with some amazing black & white photographic artwork.
‘Poetry is a way of showing your darkest thoughts and deepest feelings through the art of words.
Listen to the music of your soul and let your pen dance to the rhythm.’
Lots of Love,
Just Patty
Available in paperback and Ebook for Kindle.
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If you are thinking about committing suicide or you know someone who is suicidal, don’t hesitate! Talk!
TALK! People can’t read your mind, you have to talk about it!
No.
It isn’t over until it’s over. You can always make a change. You always have a choice.
I know, I’ve been there.
You are a warrior. FIGHT!
You are. You matter.
True. And that’s a slow, painful death.
But I know, no one cares right?
There is always someone who cares. There is always someone who needs you in this world!
Yes you can! Get help, TALK! Keep fighting!
I am here. I will listen.
Just do. Don’t turn your back on someone who needs you.
Be aware! Look out for the signs!
Don’t Judge, Just Care.
Take the badge, stand up and speak up!
Lots of Love,
Patty
What is a bookshelf other than a treasure chest for a curious mind...
Author of Fantasy novels
Writer and Mental Patient
Books Make Your Life Special
You are the Storyteller of your Own Life. You can Create Your Own Legend - or Not!
Channeling my thoughts about the world outside, and inside, into prose and poetry
My life in 2020
To my journey
Pain goes in, love comes out.
Poetry about life
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Short reads about life, work and play.
Philosopher Poet
Poetry from a heart on fire
