A letter to a friend. A letter that I will never send.
Something different today… follow the links to listen to the songs.
Music has a way of explaining my feelings when I am unable.
Can I still call you that? Or are you just Somebody that I used to know now?
I don’t know what changed between us, but I don’t like it.
This is taking too long and I want to know what’s going on. It’s been almost 2 years now.
Suddenly, you disappeared out of my life. No reasons were given.
But In the End, it doesn’t really matter. I lost you anyway.
But now I wonder…
Did I do something wrong? Did something happened without me noticing? What did I missed?
I tried to be a good friend, always there when you needed me, no matter how I felt or what I was going through.
Fun to hang out with and talk to (I think), certainly honest and loyal.
Was it not good enough? Who knew that you would turn your back on me?
The thing is, I remember you saying that you would be my friend forever. Well, I guess forever isn’t quite that long huh?
I did thought I was worth more to you. At least worthy enough to get an explanation.
Maybe I trusted the wrong person, or was I the only one that meant it when the words ‘I love you’ were spoken. Because that’s me, I mean what I say. With all of my Bonfire heart.
I know that I am not a perfect person and I never claimed to be. I am stubborn, a bit mental, insecure, I can be a Bitch and have a big mouth that sometimes says things without my approval. I do before I think, have a temper, have trust issues and I am a master in fucking things up. But I do keep my promises.
And I do love you. Honestly. And I did mean it when I said forever.
We used to spend a lot of time together. Laughing, making fun, sharing stuff.
Look at us now…
I am feeling Numb.
We are not even talking anymore.
So, where did it go wrong? I guess that’s another question of mine that will be unanswered…
I Stand Alone again.
O well, I wish that you will be happy and loved for the rest of your life.
But I also wish that I knew why. I wish that I could turn back time. I wish you where brave enough to give me a reason.
I just wish…
That this wasn’t a Goodbye.
Lots of Love